Only two things are for sure...

"Better is it to go to the house of mourning than to go to the banquet house, because that is the end of all mankind; and the one alive should take it to his heart." --Eccl. 7:2

A friend's mother just passed today. She was an amazing person. I never knew her well, but she was one of those whom you can tell she had done amazing things. It got me thinking about, not me, but my dad. Tonight, she was surrounded by family from all over. Hovering around her, waiting. So much love was in that room. Everyone was talking, but at a respectful level. Some were playing music, Kingdom Melodies. "He Will Call" would've been great to sing.

8:30pm She left is peace.

6:00am he didn't. All I could say to him was "I'll see you later, dad". The day before. Not knowing I would be woken up at 7:00am the next day, rushing me to the hospital so that I can say my belated "goodbye". He passed with no one surrounding him, Hovering around, waiting. No one talking, no one singing Kingdom Melodies. "He Will Call" wasn't yet, published back then.
In that room, it was only myself and another friend who had visited him when he was still home.

I am not bitter, jealous, or angry. Those feelings are even present. All I am is regretting, that he didn't have those near his side when he needed it. While in the past, he gave every fiber of his being just to be at anyone's side.

However, these feelings will subside. Because, as of right now, while two things are still for sure: Death and Taxes, both will be wiped away clean. Gone. And she'll be back with her family who, for the moment, said "good bye" and now will say "Missed you". And I'll be there with our family, standing around. Hovering around, waiting to say to him "I told you I'll see you later".

Don't worry about me....

I'll be fine. :B

I'm at lost for words. Because actions would suffice a lot better.

"Whoever you are, you need to either fix your head or get what's coming to you. You're digging yourself further in the hole.

I don't know who you are, because like a spineless craven, you prefer to 'hide what you really are'.

I know I have no proof of who you really are. But you must know me pretty good, by timing your messages either before or after I do something. But I will not get pulled in to the unnecessary drama that you are starting.

You better watch your words, because they can quickly turn into what's known as 'slander'. Never heard of it? Maybe if you were to do your study, then you'll find out."

Ok, I'm done with the venting.

BEEEEER!! o_O

Why can't they bring the original Chairman back?

Random Quote in July

Actually, it's a text that I saw from a friend in the mainland.
Back story: He was at a restaurant, when he spotted an NBA player eating there too. He was so excited, he couldn't get the nerve to walk up and talk to him. So:


Text: "I saw him get up and use the restroom. So I followed him. I used the stall next to him, so that I could say 'what's up'".

(Not word for word. But the main idea's there.)

There's a first for everything

This is the first time I blog from my iTouch. (not "cool" for an iPhone) But I'm chillin at starbucks working on my talk for tomorrow. This is where the whole "writers block" thing comes into play. If there was a worst time for it, it would be now. Well I've been running the main points since I got the notice. I just need to put it in order on paper.

Side note: the BIG talk is coming in September. Papa Joe, come down and critique!

But here in starbucks, the sun is just beating through the window, the AC isn't doing much good. However the suns dropping fast so I should be ready for cold front very soon.

What was I thinking?

I've realized that throughout your life you make mistakes that, obviously, you can't fix. You end saying "what was i thinking?".

So, after really checking my blog name "insouciantexpressions" I'm wondering: "what was I thinking?" I think i may have had a moment, where I feel like i've reached a new level of brains. My vocabulary has improved. I can now win a Nobel Prize for my blog name.

And then, I reevaluate it. And i ask myself: "What was i thinking?". Actually, i know why i chose it. But i aint saying. Cause that would be another topic all together that i can again ask myself: "What was i thinking?"

Also, you can't change the blog name once you've chosen it. So now i'm stuck with a URL, a mistake that, obviously, you can't fix.

:D